Oh Selena, what an awesome piece of writing. I feel honoured (even though I know I am not your only reader!) that you have been so open and honest and given so much of yourself in this work. I am sad that your "friend" treated you that way, and could not see your tender heart. The phrase that you have within you an "ocean of grief" really got to me. I can't quite understand it: a mix of sadness but with some joy thrown in. This will sound all wrong I know, but I think I want to say how rare it is to find someone willing to share so much, and to be so damn self-aware, and to be living a life so full of feelings. YinYang balance - i hope that ocean of grief is and will be balanced by the oceans of love and joy you so deserve. I feel really proud to know you. Sending love, Axxx🙏💚🌷