Keep writing, Nat. Keep playing with words. We will all read any mess you artistically create.
When i was an acupuncturist I shared with a mentor once that i felt i had forgotten everything i had ever learnt, treatments weren't going well, I felt useless and hopeless. She told me that there is always a time where everything falls apart and it is always followed by a giant leap up to the next level of becoming a better practitioner.
She was right.
Maybe it is true for writing too. It is certainly true for healing. It is never a steady climb. Two steps forward, one step back.
Keep going. I've missed you. A💚