In Chinese medicine, anger and frustrations are linked to Wood energy - the energy of spring and movement. The cure is always MOVEMENT! go for a walk, clean the house but move. I get my best spring cleaning done when I am angry - it is such a powerful energy.
Great honest story, Janin, and I am so pleased you have John in your life: friends that can accept us with all our flaws are rare and precious. Hearts to you, and him, A💚💚💚