I think this may come down to two things. And this is just personal opinion. There can be no forgiveness without blame and I would tend towards not blaming him (therefore not needing to forgive him), BUT also adding into the mix: the first time someone hurts you, the bad energy is on them. The second time they hurt you, the bad energy is on you. Stick with the self-preservation, Leonard. Don't give him the opportunity to hurt you again. I'm good with whatever feels right to you.