I don't often disagree with you, Marce, but you've got this the wrong way around. She let you down. I'm super proud that you had the sense to read the small print, the intuition to recognise it was an unfair contract and the courage NOT to be bullied or shamed into signing with her. Freya sounds like an alpha female, and whilst she may have been a valuable teacher to you at the start, she is also, I believe, a dangerous control freak preying on other females. She may have a gift for teaching and writing, but she doesn't have a fraction of your sensitivity, heart and soul. I'd love to know how those other writers REALLY fared when they published with her. My guess is they never recoup the money they gave her. You have nothing to be ashamed of. She does.