I am so very glad that you did share this, Benighted. It was, in places, heartbreaking to read - but I leave enriched by your sharing. I am so glad that Terry shed some much-needed light. She is so very good at that. I am so glad you found your way to therapy and felt safe enough to express all your emotions. I am so glad you are here, writing and sharing. I send you love and healing light. A💚💞