Hey you,

Not an easy read this one. Why on earth do i feel compelled to respond? There must be something wrong with me. I'll try and restrict myself, as per the instructions, to thoughts on your writing (you write as if you have always been writing; you write as if writing is your first language; you write beautifully and poetically even when you are angry) and the slightly tricker "thoughts on my conundrum". There is a quote i like that goes something like this: you think the purpose of a relationship is to heal your pain; the truth is that the purpose of a relationship is to reveal your pain. Sounds like job done here - for you.

Yours, Annie (my real name although i have changed it more than once. i am easily bored)