For me this highlights one of the core difficulties in being autistic. It is very hard for me to know what I am feeling. I think. i analyse. I disassociate from my feelings. I am seeing a therapist at the moment and trying to learn how to "feel" more. Some people wonder why, because there are advantages to not feeling: like i don't really feel pain. But i think the danger is that the emotions are stuck inside me somewhere and i need to feel them, before i can surrender them, release them, let them go. It is a work in progress. Hearts to you, as ever. A💚💚💚