Dear Leah, I hope you find what you are looking for. You write so beautifully. I have just read "I didn't know it was the last time" and stand in awe of your talent. I don't consider myself a writer - i suspect there are many of us here on Medium who are "writing" but are not writers. I'm on the autistic spectrum and i hate Zoom. But I am here, silently cheering for you and wishing you well. A